worrying

Matthew 6:31-34 (New International Version)
31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

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what are you seeking first in yourlife ?

are you worrying about little things

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crowding out the big things of eternal value ?

Faith - fullness

We may be faint and weary, but our heavenly Father is all-powerful.
Our feelings may fluctuate, but He is unchangeable.

.FAITH
"Depend on it, God’s work done in God’s way will never lack God’s supply.”
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so many times,i get so quick at giving up or thinking that im going the wrong path. But what i need to constantly remind myself is that - whether it is god's plan a not , he will show somehow,sometime,someway.

so , keep the faith.

hypocrisy

do not draw near to & honor the lord just with your mouth & lips
but also ensure that your heart is there.

do not lead your life asif you're putting on a good&holy show when in actual fact you are nothing inside and that you do not put god first in your heart.


do not be a hypocrite

dont wait for it , let it come

let go , let god
so many instances in life , i pray and wait for things to happen.
i was reminded by a friend to "not wait & let it come"
if i've trusted and casted my prayers to the lord , i shld believe that the lord has his plan.
and hence , shldnt wait.
waiting only means that i WANT it to happen.
but as much as "wants" are very evident in our lives , its up to God to decide if its' a "need" for now/for the future/for ever in the life.

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so, dont wait ,

let it come.

if its' God's plan & its' God's timing ,

he'll let it set in by itself.

*note to self: post applies to ALL instances in life

greed

do not let the temptations harm you

do not give in to them

do not let the greed ruin you

stick to what you believe in

stick to what you plan to do

cast it all unto the Lord

and let him be your strength.

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going back

help me to be the person you want me to

to not be so judgemental & to live my life without having to regret or feel ashamed.

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Draw me close to you Never let me go I lay it all down again To hear you say that I'm your friend You are my desire No one else will do Cause no one else can take your place To feel the warmth of your embrace Help me find the way That brings me back to You You're all I want You're all I've ever needed You're all I want Help me know You are near

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its not easy going back to the lord again.

but i've realised through the past week

that i've been making small steps.

prayer for this year will be for the 2boys.

forward

always look & move forward

dont let past events affect how you look at future ones.

In short,

embracing what comes next

loving even your enemies.

HATE , ENEMIES

LOVE , UNDERSTANDING

the above 2 lines will never flow along the same direction humanly.

but rmber, loving god means loving the people around you , even your enemies.

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1 John 4:19-21

19We love because he first loved us. 20If anyone says, "I love God," and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen. 21And this commandment we have from him: whoever loves God must also love his brother.

are we

1 Corinthians 3 : 1-3
1Brothers, I could not address you as spiritual but as worldly—mere infants in Christ. 2I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not yet ready for it. Indeed, you are still not ready. 3You are still worldly. For since there is jealousy and quarreling among you, are you not worldly? Are you not acting like mere men?

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Sometimes we think and act like we're living right. We start comparing our lives with the people around us. We do not hesitate to comment on the people who are not living their lives right. or not living with God in their lives.

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But are we really leading our lives according to the "rights" ?

Do we have any right to judge ?

NO
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Help me to guard my troubled soul

By constant, active self-control.

Clean up my thought, my speech, my play;

Lord, keep me pure from day to day.

—Thomas

matters of the heart

when you feel like you need to be in a relationship , think back and remember the note :

"For the yearning of an earthly relationship, or the possesion of it can never be compared to the relationship we have with our father. So take the yearn for earthly things away , and renew my heart Lord. I need you to restore me. Come into my heart again and take every hurt/anger/temper/greed/guilt away from it, and fill it with only you.Help me restore my heart like how people rebuild buildings after an earthquake. No matter how difficult/slow it is/takes ,buildings will still have to be built because life still has to go on. Similarly , the heart still has to be restored. For you are the first and everything else is after that. Without you , i am nothing."

is your relationship right with god in the very first place ?
if it is ,the heart will never yearn for an earthly relationship.
because the heart has already been filled by the lord.

ask yourself again.

the lord will provide,

when the time is right.

SO ?

when we serve in a ministry , we shldnt yearn for the name/award/recognition. yes , very naturally as humans we want the recognition. but ultimately , we're serving god. As humans , we get tired , we get jealous of the fact that we do so much and yet we're not recognized and ppl who have not placed as much effort has gotten it. we are hurt when things go wrng and the rest of the team sees it as a fault of ours - even when we've done so much , even if it wasnt our fault from the very beginning.

one question back at the above :
" SO ? "

we dont serve for the sake of recognition,pride and people. we serve for GOD.

He sees everything.

so next time , when you feel like giving up serving in a ministry , think again.

cause ultimately, you're doing it for (not yourself or anyone else) God.

reciprocation no ?

how often do we do things and only think about the people on the receiving end ? how often do we actually do things without having the intention of being reciprocated ? frankly, on my side , seldom - very.

a pretty simple example wld go like that:
I am of a character & person who loves to make plans and org events for people. be it birthdays , meetups , dinners , lunches. you name it , i love it. so much so that sometimes i do more than what is expected or required of a friend. i say i dont need the reciprocation , but do i really mean it ? how many of us can put in a 101% into something just for ONE friend and not expect to be reciprocated ? so many times , i get tired and fustrated when i put in so much effort in planning for an event and people dont bother to atleast put in the interest. - that hurts , terribly.
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but today , i've learnt that it doesnt matter and i shldnt look/let affect me at the portion of ppl who do not appreciate what i've put in. instead , i shld just continue putting 101% into whatever im doing and let those that appreciate enjoy. because , when we forget about ourselves , we do things others will remember.

filled once again ?

Do we ever feel like we've lost that joy in going to church , in talking to people about god's word , in singing songs of praises , in just god ? Perhaps we’ve lost that joy we first experienced at salvation. - for me , the zeal at the point when god was the centre of my life.

Sometimes i pray so hard at night , just to get that joy back. but i dont. and then i get fustrated. and then i stop praying. maybe that's why im not getting the joy in return. because im too quick at getting fustrated - fustration leads to anger and disbelief. I've realise that i am one very impatient and "cannot wait" individual. & that , has to go. god has his plan for every single one of us. i shldnt play god and want to make it happen just right when i want it to.

we shld always pray undyingly and wait.

because ultimately , he knows what's best.
when we're thirsty and feel like the joy has died off,

go back to the lord.

BACK GROUND.

this space was set up , to enable and allow the mind to roam and be free. writting the thoughts out can get pretty tiring at times. and since im always on the net, i guess its a pretty good idea placing all these thoughts here , typed out.

my main purpose of this space is to allow it to act as a reminder to myself whenever i read back that this is what has gone through the mind and ive felt once. people may not agree with what i say at times , but , it is afterall my space and my feelings.

& hopefully if possible , when individuals pop-by this space, i hope and pray that this will be a space , like for myself, a reminder.

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a little bckgrnd,

i have been going to church my entire life - physically. but sometimes i question myself if im always there mentally. being born into a christian family , with pastors and church workers in the family , i was/have been brought up in chrisitan values - thankfully.

i see so many people having transformed lives after knowing God. & sometimes , though i thank God greatly for where he has placed me , i wonder how i'll feel if i had not known god before i became a christian.

how much change would there be ?

maybe the faith would be stronger ?

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i am currently at a stage where im lost.
lost at what my direction is , and if my faith is really there.
the people whom i've grown up with are all looking at me , seemingly thinking im an awesome child of god. but , am i ? do i live according to his ways/will ? do i do what is right ? and most importantly , am i living, portraying a testamant fit for god ?