filled once again ?

Do we ever feel like we've lost that joy in going to church , in talking to people about god's word , in singing songs of praises , in just god ? Perhaps we’ve lost that joy we first experienced at salvation. - for me , the zeal at the point when god was the centre of my life.

Sometimes i pray so hard at night , just to get that joy back. but i dont. and then i get fustrated. and then i stop praying. maybe that's why im not getting the joy in return. because im too quick at getting fustrated - fustration leads to anger and disbelief. I've realise that i am one very impatient and "cannot wait" individual. & that , has to go. god has his plan for every single one of us. i shldnt play god and want to make it happen just right when i want it to.

we shld always pray undyingly and wait.

because ultimately , he knows what's best.
when we're thirsty and feel like the joy has died off,

go back to the lord.